I am really struggling right now with disappointment, disillusionment, discouragement, and a lot of other dis- words. (Disgruntled? Dysfunctional?)
We are having to deal with some serious issues that, a year ago, we thought were on the wane. This means our adoption dream is put on hold, indefinitely.
This feels like a kick in the stomach. I am struggling with those old feelings of, "Of course you're not going to adopt. Why would God bless you? He doesn't really like you that much. Basically, you need to just get used to pain and disappointment and stop thinking that any of your dreams will ever come true." Not Biblical, and not true. But that's how I'm feeling these days.
Has anyone else ever felt that way?
